TEARS

Am i that really useless? My heart was broken now, and i can't be stand for about anything pain anymore!

I am so sad! I'd had cry until non-stop, i am out of control and felt depressed now!

You know what i cry i actually had found nobody  that i can share and talk during alone. 

I am really a loser without no one else will sympathy! I am doomed to own a fate like this! 

I hate everything that came along to me, i am strive and fight hard to get my life into the right way, and i am try really tough to make it through all the outcomes which i don't ever predict it would happened! 

But what i got is nothing! DId anybody came out and stand to my side, give me a hand and do a favor for me at least once? NO!!! 

I was struggling, expecting, or even eager for anything GOOD comes to me, you know! Am i greedy for request this only PAY? 

I was a human, i need care and love too. I need humanity, I need someone who caring and take care about me! Not WAR!!!

Parents was driving me like hell, especially my dad's who always judged on me, and blame me like a beggar, rude words + no educational mind, shout like a gangster for my small mistake! He own a very strong and high EGO personality, he won't be always LISTEN people explained and just think the way he like!

I hate him, i just felt like want to send him away to the grave and burying his body deep down into the ground without any pray and rot with the coffin forever! I rather than watch he die and don't want to be a good daughter who taking care for the rest of his life. :(

Ya i know, sounds scary and BAD! And Is not worth to treat me right like you would recommended to your friends about me like this. I care before if to the old of me. To new, it won't work and i would tell you 'I DON"T CARE ANYMORE' !!!

I got the black heart, and i know myself was deserve of it! Never mind, because no one would really care about my feelings again, and no one would really treat me right. Then just let bygone be bygone, let everything get down to me, and i will do my way up to against to this world! And i'm ready for choosing the the road of no return at my future life! and i don't want to accept any offers to get myself back again!

Tears, not anymore! 

                                                                                           Kathleen K